Right now I'm wondering If I'm evil. Me and my oyaji here totally don't match that's what I think. Though I do care for him, I know and appreciate all the things he have done for us, Thank You isn't even enough and I certainly will give or do something back in return. It doesn't have to be "someday" I think it would be better if I start right at the present in my own way.
Yeah I'd like to do that... like I would ever do that! I do try but for some reason his presence makes everything wrong! And what is it with me? How can I think of a family member that way? And more importantly, that person cares for me.
But I've seen in certain TV show, a girl in the same situation as I am. She noted that "I hate even the way he breathes!" and her ka-chan told her that its normal , she went at that stage too. And that's why rebelling during this stage is common.
If that's how it is, why does it still feels so wrong. And I've never heard of this kind of complaint before from my friends. That's why I'm quite bothered. Knowing that you can actually become "evil" or bad-something without knowing it, even if you're against it? and you can't just help it, you would still hate it, you would still be irritated even if all the rest of you says No! You should'nt!
Yeah I'd like to do that... like I would ever do that! I do try but for some reason his presence makes everything wrong! And what is it with me? How can I think of a family member that way? And more importantly, that person cares for me.
But I've seen in certain TV show, a girl in the same situation as I am. She noted that "I hate even the way he breathes!" and her ka-chan told her that its normal , she went at that stage too. And that's why rebelling during this stage is common.
If that's how it is, why does it still feels so wrong. And I've never heard of this kind of complaint before from my friends. That's why I'm quite bothered. Knowing that you can actually become "evil" or bad-something without knowing it, even if you're against it? and you can't just help it, you would still hate it, you would still be irritated even if all the rest of you says No! You should'nt! 
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